L A T E L Y

this last week has really been rough, thanks to my girl jessie it was a lot easier. monday night jessie flew in town from texas to stay a few days after our dear friend passed away the week before.  we were both really close to CJ, the whole thing still seems surreal to me. monday night we met up with some friends at a local bar and had appetizers and all the pumpkin beers we could have! tuesday morning we laid our friend to rest and celebrated his life, the funeral was beautiful showing off his art work and seeing all the people he has touched.  CJ and i met in high school then even went off to art college together, he was a big part of my life during those years. i have to many memories to list or ill be here all night.  CJ introduced me to The Smiths, Casiotone for the Painfully Alone, and many more that are still my favorite musicians today.  the summer before college we were together almost everyday, he would join my family on day trips and little adventures.  ill never forget our family trip to the lake with CJ along and we decided to jump off the high dive and moon people every time with my mom screaming at us and threatening to go home if we didn't stop.  another memory that always makes me laugh was on a freezing cold winter day and my truck was in the shop so CJ walked the whole way to my house and we took out the kids bikes in my parents garage and rode them to the grocery store with our knees hitting the handle bars just so we could buy gingerbread houses to build. at one point in my life he was my best friend, saying bye is never easy but i know we will meet again. jessie being in town was great it took both our minds off what had happened and we got to have some fun while remember and sharing stories of our friend. what happened was tragic but it brought jessie and i together again, we haven't seen each other in about two years and it felt like i just was with her.  the last couple days was comforting its funny how a tragedy can also have a positive spirit by bringing people together and remember how precious your time on earth is. (our friend chose to take his life and all i can say is if you have someone special to you that suffers with depression make sure your are always there for them no matter what time of the night and keep positive vibes in there life and prayer) we love you CJ